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Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Halloween 2011

     So, yesterday was Halloween. I took Makenna to daycare, but we call it school, and she had a blast at their Halloween party. She wore her costume. Of course they got supposedly "washable" paint on her costume. I washed it, and most of it didn't come out, but I was able to hide it, for the most part. Then we came home, played around, and got ready for trick or treating. We went trick or treating on post, and Makenna got quite a bit of candy. She would of gotten more if we were in a normal community, but thats ok. She don't really eat candy anyways. I try to keep the family on a low fat and low sugar diet. I don't want the kids or my husband and I to have heath problems in the future. Halloween was pretty much what it was. I mean, it is a lot more fun when her Daddy is home, and he is scary everyone, and making the simplist things 100 times more fun, but we made do! Next year we are all going to wear matching family costumes! I can't wait. We are going to be so fricking cute!! But that's all I got for Halloween. I hope ya'lls was fantabulous too!

Thursday, October 27, 2011

More October

     Let me first begin by saying, October is my favorite month ever! It always has been, and it just was a mega bonus that my beautiful daughter was also born in October!
     So, my daughter turned 1 earlier this month. She is my big one year old now, so I am adjusting to saying that I have a one year old. Sometimes, I find myself calling her 12 months, instead of 1, because I'm in denial that she is growing up! I guess that's part of reality, kids grow up, though, I don't like it, that's just life. She had a birthday party at the beginning of September when her Daddy was home on R and R, and on her birthday, I bought and ice cream cake, and had my friend Christina, and her 3 kids over for some cake. I bought the cake thinking that it was cake with ice cream on it, no, not at all, it was solid ice cream. It was really good, but daughter was getting frustrated because she wanted to eat it, but it was so cold for her to hold. So, I ended up feeding her most of it. It was really good though. We got her a frame that holds pictures of her from the last 12 months of her life, and I filled it, and gave it too her on her birthday. I am making a scrapbook for her too, but I still have yet to find the time to finish it. I want to make one every year for all the kids, so that they can have a "summary" or whatever of the past year and their accomplishments, and the fun they had. I am almost done, and I really wanted it to be done by her birthday, but reality of life, and being crazy busy, got in my way. I will be better next year and I will get her current one done ASAP! Maybe this Sunday, since I have nothing going on that day.

Mountains that surround the hotel!

      The weekend following her birthday we went to this amazing place called Edelweiss. Edelweiss is a US military 5 star resort. You must be an active duty soldier, dependent of an active duty member, or a retired service member, to be able to stay there. It is gorgeous! It is pretty cheap too, since its for the military, and they know that the military don't pay shit. So, my friend Christina, her twins, her 6 year old, and I and my daughter, went to this resort for the weekend. It is located in the Alps, by the Switzerland, and Austria border! It was gorgeous! It even snowed while we were there! I was excited to see the first snow fall of the year in Germany! We had a blast. We even went to Neuenswanstein Castle, which is the castle that Walt Disney mimicked his castle in Disney World after. It is beautiful! We took a horse drawn carriage up and down the very long, steep hill! It was beautiful! Anyways, we had a memorable time, and I can't wait to go again! Biggest part about the trip that made me appreciate my husband, even though he wasn't there, was the packing/unpacking the car, and carrying all the luggage to and from the hotel room! LOL!
      Since then, I have started taking medication for the neurological disorder I have. It is starting to work, but I hope that when I am taking the full amount, I will be 100% better! I have also finished my government and info technology class, continued my personal finance class, and started my writing class, and my biology class. Killing myself so I can graduate in May. YEAH!! Can't wait to be done! Then I will just have my bachelors to go, and then I will be done done! YEAH! But I am not starting my bachelors until I get to Florida, at the end of next year! I am looking for a job though. I am not willing to work a job that I am way over qualified for. Sounds snobby, but its just not worth it if I have to be away from my daughter for a shitty job. Since I don't have to work, I can be a little bit picky. Yes, a job is a job, but if someone needs a job, I would rather leave it open to them.
     I think that's all I got for the night. Now onto some homework!

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I have the right to my opinion, as do other US citizens. I post my opinion, and you don't have to like it or agree with it, but I am allowed to do that. I do not post slanderous pieces of writing on here either. I do not use dates, times, locations, and names of people for that reason. Legally, I am doing what the first amendment protects. I owe a big thanks to all my readers! It means the world to me. 

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Honesty...

      So, my last post, I was very vague about my summer vacation. I was trying to still be friends with people that truly did me wrong this past summer, and now that it just didn't work out, I am going to tell you exactly what happened.
     A use to be great friend of mine, got pregnant by a deuce bag. Honestly, she seen it coming. He has 2 kids with 2 other woman, and does a horrible job of taking care of them. So, as I see, she put herself in that shitty situation. I know when it comes to someone you love, you hope that you can change them, and I am sure that is what she thought, but still. But keeping my mouth shut, and letting her vent to me and I stayed a supportive friend. She also says her birth control failed and that's how she got pregnant, but that isn't true either. She wanted to get pregnant, and well, she was successful. So she delivered the baby in March after having a stressful pregnancy from the situation she put herself in. Her mom takes care of the baby most of the time. She works, but even when she isn't working, her mom is the primary care giver. She is ok with leaving her child for days at a time, and she just keeps living her life. She goes out every couple of weeks. But she says she can't handle her child and uses post pardum depression as an excuse. Now, I am sure she has post pardum, but she is ok with just handing her kid off. That's not how I am, so I really honestly don't understand. But my step son's mother is the same way. Her mother spend the whole summer telling me how to be in a relationship, and pointing out the tiny "flaws" in my husband and I's relationship, which like I said, are tiny. My husband and I have an amazing relationship, that I do love to brag about it, and I hope that everyone else can find happiness like I have. I think that her mom is jealous that I have something great, and she thinks her spoiled child deserves what I have, more than I do. That's how she acted anyway. But I continued to keep my mouth shut.
      Well after staying with my mother, failed, I stayed with that friend and her parents at their house. They were great at first, but then they acted like I owed the world, and the bad decisions they made financially fell on me. I continued to ignore it, and after 2.5 months of hell, I came home. I regret going back to Michigan. My family and that "great friend" I use to have, were awful! I hate thinking about it now. It gives me anxiety and makes me very angry, that I let them people around my child.
      After them both (her and her mom) ignored all my text messages and facebook messages, then seeing her mom write rude comments, twice, on my facebook, I went the fuck off! Yeah, could of handled it a little better, but after the hell they put me through, after I chose to visit them, they deserved every piece of hell I gave them in return! I probably could of said more, and even meaner things, but I did hold back a bit. I, very rudely, said to her mom, that the rude comments, is bullshit, and went into detail about her ignoring me. So her daughter then chimed in so I, again rudely, explained that she has no idea what it means to be responsible for a child, and battered around the fact, that she don't take care of hers. I hope for the child's sake, that she steps up, and starts being a parent, and not having the grandparents be parents.
     Do I regret what I said? Do I miss her as a friend? Do I miss her mom? NO! I live with no regret. I was honest, and that is something they can't handle. I have always had to take care of my own, so someone who has never had responsibility for anything or anyone, including herself, will never understand me. I use to confide in her mom a lot, but I have my girl Christina to confide in, so I don't need her. I did lose a good friend. Well, she was in school. But this "good friend" is very immature, and so its like being friends with a child. I am 21 years old. I have been married over a year now, I was in the Army, now I'm not, I have always taken care of myself, and I have always had to be "beyond my years" or so to speak. So it is hard to be friends with someone who is not on the same level as me. I know, anyone can relate to that.
     On August __, 2011, my husband came home from Afghanistan for R and R. We had an amazing 18 days together! We stayed in Germany, where our home is, and just toured the area, and relaxed. It felt so weird to have him home. I didn't know what to do. I woke up in the middle of the night a lot, almost kicking him, because I wasn't use to someone in bed with me anymore. It was hard to maintain the schedule I had, because I wanted to relax with him. He was really helpful with Makenna, which, generally, he always has been. He's an amazing father to Makenna and Chance, so I knew that would never change. He still neglected to help me around the house. But, I told him, that when he is home for good, I am going to need him to pick up the slack in that department. He realized his mistakes with that, without me having to point it out, so I know when he gets home, he will be more helpful around the house. My major complaint is the trash and recycling. That's really the only thing I need him to do, the rest I do. Which, I do not have a problem with that. But he can handle cleaning up after himself, and taking out the trash and recycling. We went to a few cities around the area, and had a good time. I finally got use to him being home, about 3 days before he left again, so when he left, it was hard. It still is, and its almost 2 months later. I miss him so much! I honestly didn't know or realize that I would miss him this much! He is my rock, and yes, I am staying afloat without him, but sometimes, I find myself gasping for air. It's not that I can't handle day to day life, and raising our child alone, its the fact that apart of me is missing now, and its in danger always, and I just want to protect it. I just want to hold him, and protect him! I am his wife, and yes, he is my protector, but deep down, I am his protector too.
      Makenna is my big 1 year old now. She is just over 34 inches tall, and weighs 22 pounds. She is very tall and skinny! She still isn't walking on her own yet, but we are getting there. She is too interested with reading and learning, she could care less about walking. She can get to point A and B, while crawling. I really don't blame her. She has mastered her colors, and many animals. She is at a 2-3 year old learning level! Her brain is HUGE! She is ridiculously smart, and probably will be smarter than me and her Daddy combined by time she's 5! No joke!
       There is tons more for me to update you with, but for now, I am going to call it a night. Hopefully tomorrow, I will finish my October update for you.  Follow me on facebook, if your a fan! https://www.facebook.com/meghan.hetherton1

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Been awhile

                 It has been like almost 3 months since I have written here! I can't believe it! I guess I've been a little lazy and busy. I guess I haven't wanted to face the reality. My summer vacation sucked ass. Lost a really good friend of mine, but I know I am not in the wrong. I can't feel sorry for someone. I am their for my friends for when they want to talk, but I can't feel sorry for you when you did this to yourself. Enough said! Then when I came home she was disrespectful and annoying. So after almost 2 months of that, I went off the handle! I blew up! Probably could of handled it better, but all well! Life goes on! My family, husband and children, are my number one priority, nobody else. So don't ever think I am going to put you first! Then my husband had R and R a month after I got back from Michigan. We had the best 18 days of our lives. We even tried to get pregnant. I got to have 2 dates with my husband without Makenna. I got trashed one night and uber trashed the other night. We went out 2 Fridays in a row! Crazy! I missed my daughter so much though! I hate being away from her. But of course, all good things do come to an end, and Brandon is back in Afghanistan. He has been gone for 2 weeks now. Feels like longer, but its not.  His company lost his promotion packet and they have screwed up his pay. Got the pay fixed, or so I thought I did, but now they are paying me too much, and then we have IG investigating the company over the promotion thing. Ridiculous! So anyways, a lot has really changed.
          I went to the Dr's and found out I have a neurological disorder. I forget the name of it, but it pretty much means that the nerves in my spine do not listen to my brain, when my brain says everything is ok, so my spine is always freaking out! Which causes me to have muscle spasms, which has led to muscle deterioration and equilibrium issues.Medication for the rest of my life. Could of been fixed when I was a kid, but I never got tested. So Makenna will have to be tested when she is 4 years old to see if she has what I have.
           Speaking of Makenna. Her birthday is coming up. We had her party a month early when her Daddy was home to celebrate. Anyways, she has to go get her eyes tested next month. She has a contagious throat infection right now and is house bound until she gets better. Was suppose to make up my midterm exam tomorrow, but I am going to have to cancel until next week. This sucks! Can't wait for this class to be over with!
                I am really tired of school. It is exhausting and annoying me. I can't wait to be done in January, and then I am taking a BIG break from it! Then I am not going back until the Winter of 2012 when I am in Florida. Can't wait!

Thursday, July 28, 2011

About Me:

          Their are many aspects of my life that nobody really knows about, some things that happened after I left my home town, at the age of 16, and moved to the Detroit area. These things still haunt me and bother me, and makes the things in my daily life, even harder to deal with. Most things I have never even told my husband. It's not that I'm keeping secrets from him, its just something that I don't want to talk about. It clouds my brain enough, does it really need to cloud my mouth too? But then sometimes it does seem like I am keeping it a secret from him, so I will tell him on R&R. He will not be mad, he'll be very understanding actually. That's what I love about him! That's all I have to say about that, now lets move on!
     
          More details about me. I grew up in the middle of no where, where I just was never meant to live. The country life is ok, but it's not how I want to live, and I'm not. Though I have enjoyed many activities that come with living in the country, ie: snowmobiling, 4-wheeling, muddin', etc. its not how I want to continue to live and I've known this since I was like 14 years old. When I moved to the Detroit area when I was 16, and truly got the feeling of what it felt like to struggle, and work my ass off just to survive, I learned that the inner city isn't for me either. I want to live in the suburbs. I want to live where their is stuff going on, and I don't have to drive an hour to get to it, like you do in the country, and I don't always want to be in the center of the action, like in the city. I definitely don't want to be back in the inner city ever again! Not worth anything to me! I hated it there, and it'll be a cold day in hell before I ever go back there!

          My mother kicked me out when I was 16 years old, for no reason. I'm not saying that for nothing, she really just up and decided one day she was done taking care of me, so I had to go. Lived with a friend for a while, but that really didn't work out. I was on my own, pretty much, and it was not fun! But I stayed in school, kept my grades up, and graduated to a better life!

          I joined the Army on September 11, 2007, initially as a reservist then went to basic training in June 2008, graduated, then returned to high school for my senior year, at the same time I chose to go active duty and become a 31B, military police officer. I went to training for that in July 2009, and then got stationed in Ansbach, Germany, in October 2009. I worked to road, as a patrol cop, partied, and met the love of my life, Brandon Michael Hetherton. He was an NCO in my unit, that happened to live across the hall from my barracks room. You've already read how we met, so we will skip that part. I got pregnant on January 17, 2010 from the love of my life. We were already talking marriage, so we just moved our wedding date up 5 months. Initially we were going to get hitched in December 2010, but we did it in July. We've been together as of this date today a year and 8 months, (almost 9) and we've been married over a year. Our anniversary for dating is November 14, 2009 and our wedding one is July 15, 2010. We are happy and we have an amazing life.

         I have a 9 month old daughter (10 in a week) named Makenna Sue Hetherton. I absolutely love her name! I think that it is creative and fun, and I have even spelled it differently than how other people do. Most spell it McKenna or MacKenna. Either way, her name only has one capital letter in it, and no C. Dare to be daring! LOL! We almost named her Cyrus Aleena Sue Hetherton. (2 middle names), but that name was cute, but she didn't feel like a Cyrus, and after knowing there are 2 scary murder creepy movies out with a killer name Cyrus, kind of glad we didn't! LOL!!  I still like the name though, but I LOVE Makenna's name. We call her Kenna most of the time, but her Daddy calls her Munkee! (Yes, I spelled monkey wrong for a reason) We made her a stuffed monkey that had her Dad's voice recorded in it for the deployment, and we had to name it, so we decided on Munkee, and instead of keeping the spelling the same, we made our own up. It came from build-a-bear workshop, so it has a birth certificate and everything. Makenna does many many many things, and she is currently exploring the walking stage. She is very smart and has always been very advanced for her age.
 

          I have a step-son named Chance Alexander Edward Hetherton. He is 9 years old. Yes, he was born when I was 11, almost 12. I didn't know Brandon back then though, so it's not weird or anything. He currently resides with his mother in Nevada for now, until we move back to the states, then he will be living with us, like it should be. He should be with his Daddy, Sister, and me. Plus there are many details about his mother that I won't exploit on the internet, for reasons why he should be living with us. Moving on.... He is a great kid, very smart, and handsome.  I love him like he is my own, and always will. I know we will hit the point in our relationship where he is going to play the "ur not my mother" card, and I say bring it on! I love him regardless, and he will know that eventually, it may just take time, a lot of time. Brandon was 17, almost 18 when Chance was born, his mother was 16. Brandon dropped out of high school and got a job and took full responsibility for his actions, or lack of actions (no condom) and has always tried to be the best father to him, even though we live 10,000 miles away in Germany. Brandon truly loves his kids with all his heart, and they are his world! I am still getting to know Chance, and I am adjusting to being a step mom. I hate that I don't get a say at all, but I'm learning to deal with that. Regardless of who's eggs he's made out of, he is an equal member in my house!
Kitchen

Balcony


Full Bathroom




Kenna's room
love seat in living room
TV wall in living room
          My house. I live in a tri-plex style home in Germany. It's kind of like a duplex, but it has 3. It's really nice for being a German home! I love it! I can't wait to get back to it. I hated how it took me being away from my house to realize how much I love it! But that's part of the learning process in life, and I have learned my lesson for sure!  It's pretty cool. I am still decorating, because its ungodly expensive, so little by little, we are getting it to where we want it. Plus, I'm not doing any painting or anything since we are moving in less than 2 years, about a year and 6.5 months from now actually! So it'll never be totally the way I want it, but its still nice! All the pics are from when we first moved in, so the bathroom isn't still empty, Kenna's room has more too it now, and the living room has been modified a bit too. But you get the idea!
chair in living room
 
           I like to sew and scrapbook, but that is currently an expensive hobby that I have had to put on hold due to finances. I have tons of scrap booking stuff, but no pictures printed out. I really need to get prints as soon as we get some extra money! My plan is to make Makenna a scrap book, well all of our kids, a scrapbook of themselves over the last year. I have everything to make Makenna's but no prints. I need to do that when I get back to Germany, so I can get her book done before her actual birthday in October. We are doing her party about 3.5 weeks early, so Brandon can be there!

           I was thinking about doing some crafts for extra money. I have noticed that people in housing on post have problems getting curtains to fit the windows. Germans have their curtains hung from their ceiling on a track. Since I can sew, and I could make any kind of curtains they wanted, any style, and material, I thought I could go into a business doing that. Maybe do my friend's houses for just the cost of the material, and then they can show it off to their friends and I could make curtains! I think that it would be fun, and that is an easy enough project to do after Kenna goes to bed for the night. I want to make curtains for my house anyways. I like mine, but I want better ones, longer ones, since the curtain rod track is almost 12 feet high! I could get creative too. My living room is done in zebra print, my favorite, and navy blue. So I could in cooperate the zebra print into the curtains somehow. Now I've got my self thinking! LOL!!!

          I have always worked. I started baby sitting at like the age of 9, and at the age of 14 I got a job cleaning kennels and doing some other odd and ends stuff, while still baby sitting. When I was 16 I worked at various fast food restaurants. I moved around quite a bit, so I had to get a new job quite a bit too. I also did some under the table gigs too, just to make ends meat. That is the reason why I joined the Army, I got tired of struggling! I hated working just to survive, I wanted to work to not only survive, but to have fun. I wanted to make something of myself too! Once I joined the Army, and moved to Germany, I had a disposable income! I had no responsibilities what so ever! A couple minor credit cards, and a cell phone, and internet bill, but that was it! It was amazing! I don't live like that anymore. I do not work, and I have a husband and kids now, and I miss that, and hopefully soon, when I get a job, get us out of debt, we can go back to having a more leisure-filled income, not completely disposable, but better than what we have now! I want to travel more too and that cost money, lots of it! Plus we are going to need more money in savings for when we get back to the states for good.

           Moving Plans: Brandon is getting a job set up for him to go to after we get back to the states, and we are looking at houses, but in the mean time while we look, we will rent a little apartment. We are going to rent an apartment because we don't want to rush our house buying. We want to move into a house that we want to keep forever, we don't want a ''starter home''. When we buy our house, we want to keep that house and never move again! Brandon and I have both moved around too much in our lives, we are tired of it, and are ready to settle in! So, taking a few months to really look at a house, and make sure we want it, is smart. We may spend more money because we will have to pay for an apartment, but it'll be worth it, knowing we truly got the house of our dreams! We are still planning to move to Florida. Going to the sunshine state. I really am not a fan of the heat, I love winters, but Brandon wants out of the snow, so we are moving. We have both agreed. It's not just because Brandon says he wants to live there either. He was willing to live in Michigan if I wanted too, and I said no way, we then decided maybe Nevada, now we have pretty much settled in on Florida. We haven't wanted to change our minds about that one! I am so excited!

          But that is a ton of information about me. Let me know about you, my readers! Going to try to sleep now. I am tired, after a failed attempt to fall asleep, and blogging for almost 2 hours, it is time to hit the sack! Good night!!!

91 Done and Gone.....

          So I found out today that my best friend in Germany, her husband just left to go join the rest of our guys in Afghan-land. I feel so bad. They let him stay behind while she was pregnant, about to deliver their twins, and now that the babies are born, but not even 2 months old, they sent him away for the remainder of the deployment. I was hoping that they would just keep putting it off, and then saying "fuck it, he don't need to go now" but they didn't! I feel so bad for her! He just left, and when Brandon first left I was a mess and I only have one child, she has a 6 year old and twins that aren't even 2 months old! I can't wait to get back to Germany to help her out and give her a shoulder to cry on or a break, time to herself, so she can cope. I had time to myself at night after Makenna went to bed, to help and cry out loud to myself, and it really made me feel so much better!

          But we are in our 90's counting how many days gone. It sometimes feels like "wow, that much time has gone" and most times it feels like "we are only in the 90's when I need to be in the 300's! FML!!!" I guess I am having both feelings at one time right now. I hope this week is a good week and things go good for my last week in the states. Tomorrow I am going to my mother's house to go swimming in her pool in the late morning and early afternoon. Then back to where I'm staying for the afternoon. Then when the evening comes around I am going to my sister's house for dinner and ice cream. It'll be a good time.

          So I am watching this show called "Dance Mom's", I think. It is about these little kids that are like 7 years old being put through dance hell. They make them wear tons of make up, and wear sexy costumes, and it is even previewing for another episode where the dance teacher has the dancers in a dance move where they lay on their stomach and stretch there legs around and over their head. She has rose stems with thorns on them so that they can learn not rest their chin on the grounds! I would be damned if they ever did that for my kid! I'd call the cops and get my child the fuck out of there!!!!